appliexe - АМБИВАЛЕНТНОСТЬ
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Like a bare wire,
I’ll touch your shoulder.
To my contradictions,
Add infinity.
I hate to love,
Yet I fear we’ll be torn apart.
Ambivalence—
My ambivalence.
And hello to you once more.
What is it this time? Oh, just the usual.
You know, I don’t miss you anymore.
I’ve learned to speak out loud—
To others—about my private life.
And hello to you once more.
In every city, on every street,
I feel like Mono, dragging my
Companion—Love—through the alleyways
Where, for the very first time,
Our eyes met—
To the strumming of old songs,
Inside cold stairwells.
Some people were hung up on others—
Just as I was—obsessed.
But for so long now, I’ve had to
Pretend that I’ve already
Forgotten everything we once loved.
Sometimes it’s so hard, my sunshine.
And in rare moments—it’s even amusing.
I’d like to share this with you,
But my sense of empathy is broken now.
I’ll say "goodbye" once again.
It’s become too hard for us to breathe together.
You know, I still miss you—
But somehow, no one understood me.
Without explanation.
I’ll say "goodbye" once again.
In every bar, in every companion,
I’m still searching for even a part of you.
But in vain; and I’m terrified
That this feeling will never let me go.
It’s nothing—I’m just tired.
My bag is packed in the corner.
As I burned every bridge behind me,
I kept forgetting to leave behind
That one specific corner of my memories.
But to be honest, I must admit
That we did try again, after all.
And all the while, my own feelings—
Monosyllabic yet multifaceted—
Were slowly destroying me.
Like a bare wire,
I’ll touch your shoulder.
To my contradictions,
Add infinity.
I hate to love,
Yet I fear we’ll be torn apart.
Ambivalence—
My ambivalence.