Гришковец - Монолог
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How strange it is in life. You live, live some ordinary life, and suddenly a person appears in it. Man. More precisely, at first you appear in his life. And you yourself did not notice it at first. But he appeared and you saw him with some side vision, more precisely, not even himself, but some kind of silhouette, and did not attach any importance to this. But gradually this silhouette became more distinct and more defined, and now you see a specific man in front of you. And of course, before that you dreamed that someone would appear in your life, and you had no doubt that you were worthy of happiness. But this particular and specific man has nothing to do with the beautiful blurry way that you drew to yourself. And now you look at this man, and you are breathing - no, this is not at all what you need. But this man does so much effort, he is so persistently trying to break into your life, he becomes so much. He is everywhere. He meets you from work, awaits somewhere, escorts, constantly calls, says something or is silent into the phone, and you understand that it is he. And because you are so many of you are even afraid to turn on the TV, because you think - you will turn on the TV and it will appear there. But once, sitting with friends in a cafe, you suddenly think - and where is this person now, and why he never again called me. And how only you thought about it, after a while, you understand that you cannot think about anything else. And your whole world, in which there were so many friends and interests, is narrowing! You just have to take a step towards this person and you take this step ... But the condition does not last long. Because you look at this man, and suddenly you see - he calmed down. And he calmed down not because he no longer needs you. He really needs you. But he just calmed down, and he can continue to live calmly. But it does not suit you. And you begin to arrange an indentation - grab a suitcase, leave to be stopped in order to return for a while, what was at the beginning. And they stop you and return ... And then they stop stopping, and you return yourself. And it is terribly dishonest, and can last a very long time. A very long time.
But one fine morning you wake up, and suddenly you understand - I am free. And again the interests and friends are returning. But the truth from this moment you live very, very carefully. So that God forbid again, do not break into this experience and pain. You live carefully, carefully ... but you continue to wait for something ... Hope ...