DEADKID - Небеса подождут
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The past throws a stone at the throat with its feet on the chest
Those we will never become, those we killed ourselves
Envy exposes the traumas that give rise to pity
But I promised that I would stay, look how I try
Coping with what this crazy path brings
Threats and driving splinters that I remember by heart
Unanswered questions as a teenager realized how easy it is to be trash but thrown into space
I made up dreams while everyone around me was dying from the dose
I grew up like them, but at the same time I was always afraid of becoming an adult.
I was attracted by something more than to be and seem
And those who are nearby can be counted with just one hand of fingers.
They were based on groups of chewed years
What was preserved on cassette tapes but is no longer alive
I was sleeping and saw myself committing my total arson on stage.
And life kicked me to extremes no matter where I went
Changing schools like gloves, moving problems
The street teaches you not to run and to hit last and first.
Not knowing the limits of alcohol, I woke up in the hospital
Police department accounting and this is how principles are born
I only have my mother to blame for those tears and shame
She forgave and forgot, I couldn't let go
Then everything is the same as everyone else’s life and work until they sweat
I became a murdered commoner until I started vomiting
The dream faded into the background because I had to eat something
These debts once again put me under pressure
Already gray everyday life after a quarrel and scandals
She is always by my side and everything was not enough for me
And I boasted about what I could do just to bring my goal closer
Look, they started like you but have already given their concert
Tell me, the worse you are, the guy you need to take and then push
I got lost in these sneakers and lost track of myself
She cried at night, I left her alone
It seemed like he was drowning, but by chance he stupidly walked along the bottom for a long time
As if minutes are melting years in the web of those roads
Again I climbed into a place where I couldn’t get out myself
Something is wrong around me, as if the world has become uninteresting
I recorded most of my songs in dens
And for the life of me I can’t understand what was going on in my head
I put up a cross and again escape into the useless every day
I was going crazy, but I was leading with me all those I valued.
And on his shoulders he carried the mistakes that he once made
I was dying and imagined that it would be easier for me to live this way
Among countless losses and unreached peaks
Before my eyes, like yesterday, I’m wearing bustle bracelets
Again interrogations, what and how there is silence in the courtroom
And my mother holds me tightly and doesn’t want to let me go
I promise I'll be back and I have to keep it
But I can't pick up the pieces of the heart that I broke
They are stuck in my memory, I don’t have the strength to take them out
And I tried not to break all the years of mental battle
The struggle to remain yourself forever
Then I thought that I would end up like everyone else, turn out the lights
But there is nothing sadder than these walls that we have come up with within ourselves.
Quite a few young years will pass and they will be erased as in a dream
After all, only the past is the world where our weaknesses are stronger
Like everyone else, I was once a friend and let’s say I don’t believe it anymore
People are the same as before, just garbage outside my door
It seemed to us that we were chosen by someone and closer than our brother
But all this, however, was not true, so it must be so
You know, karma here will affect anyone, no matter who you are.
If you betrayed, be prepared for the fact that you yourself will be betrayed
Time does not heal, time endures, it waits and makes you understand
What cannot be corrected, you just have to accept
Just like I once accepted hopelessness into one
And despite all the crap I go against fate
My middle finger in her face, my voice is here as before
Now I'll fuck this life and heaven will wait!
Heaven will wait, I'm holding on and my way through the thorns is the route
Through the pain, white noise through the fog here I breathe, I endured but now the heavens will wait!
Heaven will wait, I will light the light with a spark that once went out
Through the noise and taboo, the wounds will heal again, I’m here, so believe the heavens will wait!
Heaven will wait, I'm holding on and my way through the thorns is the route
Through the pain, white noise through the fog here I breathe, I endured but now the heavens will wait!
Heaven will wait, I will light the light with a spark that once went out
Through the noise and taboo, the wounds will heal again, I’m here, so believe the heavens will wait!